Beautiful...
That's the word that came to his mind when gazing over the vast garden in his own eyes. Such peerless and flawless beauty of nature had attracted this young boy,dressed in white silk shirt and black trousers. His youthful face reflects his vigor, full of energy. He ran across the garden, deeply drawn to the seemingly endless perpetual paradise. Still unable to contain his own wonder of the beautiful garden, the child then sang.
''I see trees of green........ red roses too,
I see em bloom........ for me and you,
And I think to myself..... what a wonderful world....''
He then carved a pleasing smile on his lips, continued to admire the garden's beauty. Beauty that reminded him of freedom, hope and peace in this world.
A glance into the garden can seemingly take away all problems of the world. He thought to himself.

Out of sudden, there was a loud shrieking sound came from behind. As he turned to see, his green eyes swelled as he was shocked to see an explosion which was just yards away. The young child was filled with fear to the point that he could not move. It was too late for him to escape from the blast...
The young boy had no idea...

''Carrying with all of our hopes and dream''

In a nutshell, nearly all of us have our own hopes, aspirations and dreams. (duh!) Well, maybe some of us have it and pursue them while some just sit at the corner and only dream about them. We also aspire to be the person that we want to be, thinking that our life will be perfect and will be our zenith and peak of our recorded life history. Perhaps, that would be the only solution endless search of complete and total victory, a sort of utopia-like or paradise-like, realizing that we have achieved the purpose of our life and can finally declare that we have led a successful life. Can we achieve them? Are we able to see our accomplished lifelong dreams right in front of our own very eyes? We want to be successful. Yes. The question lies in not how we able to achieve them, but rather, what do they mean to you? The sky have its limits...

Double tagged by Chaco and Andrew Tan

A. Attached or single?

Attached...

B. Best friend?
Don't really have last time but now I have her...

C. Cake or pie?
Both...

D. Day of choice?

Friday

E. Essential item?
Now I know specs is important...

F. Favorite color?
Crimson Red

G. Gummy bears or worms?

Gummy Bears

H. Hometown?

Sandakan and now Petaling Jaya as my current hometown...

I. Favorite indulgence?

Magnum Almond, Snickers, Mars Bars, Haagen Daaz, chendol, ais kacang, teh ais

J. January or July?

Doesn't matter...

K. Kids?

When the time comes after marriage...

L. Life isn't complete without?

Grace...

M. Marriage date?
Not too soon, when I have her permission....

N. Number of magazine subscriptions?
1 or 2, that was last time though

O. Oranges or apples?

Apples

P. Phobias?

maybe time...lol

Q. Quotes?

'' You can never fail a man for trying.''

R. Reasons to smile?

Her, God, friends, books, ice cream

S. Season of choice?
Spring

T. Tag 10 people.
Xiying, Daniel Sim, Mun Yee, Roy, Mr Kenny, Michelle Goh, Paul Wong, Sherene, Vincent Lee, Jason Lee

U. Unknown fact about me?

What's not obvious about me...

V. Vegetable?

Spinach, I'm not popeye though...

W. Worst habit?

Sleep late, like to push my nose upwards...

Y. Your favorite food?
Burger, Pizza, Spaghetti, Cheese baked rice

Z. Zodiac sign?
Aries

It's been a long time since the last time I had blogged. Sorry for a long hiatus. Real long hiatus.
Anyway, Christmas is coming soon and I love Christmas!!! It is the best season for the year in my opinion. Christmas celebrations never cease to amuse me. Every year, I cherish every moment of Christmas celebrations whether it's from tv, radio, computer or others, it's just different when you celebrate Christmas.

I would like to dedicate the rest of this post to my love, Xiying. Never would I expect that both of us will get into relationship, I mean this far. Therefore, I'm really extremely both grateful as well as surprised when she accepted me. Thank God for making this happened and this proved to be a miracle for me!! After months of struggling with the feelings I had towards her, it's been quite a journey. It's been an adventure of a lifetime in which I began to feel the darkest, deepest and lowest level of my life as I'm in a long battle of attrition in pursuing and winning her heart. Tears and toils taking their toll me even as I'm in this situation, the first time of my life. I began to question my own wisdom and sincerity in choosing to continue to pursue her even though it seemed to be a fruitless endeavor. Question after question continue to haunt my own mind, debating the necessity of the choice I made.

However, bigger part of this adventure does not necessarily limit itself in pursuing and winning her heart and her affections. It includes my own search, rediscovering and even preserving the identity that I can only find in God. Most of the time, the core of the challenge is whether I do have what it takes to do it. But even before you can answer this core question, another preceding code that needed to be deciphered and had to be fully applied is ''who you are''- who do you believe you are, where does your desire takes you, to whom you can fully lean on for your desire and finally, what can you do about it. The code itself is simple yet complicated as it unfolds to several complicated questions that requires more than books or experiences that can fully prepare yourself to be able to answer all of them. Learning to surrender to God and learning to let God take care can be very different things together.

I must admit that only God alone can make it happen through His works and sown seeds in my endeavor. He really uses her to change a lot of things in my life and especially, my own character. Character after all, the core essence of one's heart and soul, causal-effect of one's actions, color of ones life. A beautiful character captivates, a strong character makes odds capitulate, a stunning character captures, a wise character considers and a caring character concerns. Sounds easy but it takes journey of lifetime to cultivate such character and only the Creator with His creativity can know ''what,who,what,when and how to'' technicalities to paint such character. Vulnerabilities after all builds resilience. You don't lie when you want to deny such thing happening in front of you and you don't bluff when you justifying yourself. I made a lot of mistakes and errors in that track. I even struggles with grace and mercy and salvation. But God is my whispering hope.

I thank God for having that privilege and knowing her and I believed in His timing, when it comes, it comes. It is a blessing to be not only her friend but to be her lover as well. Thank God for making our love alive and living. He is the lifeline that fuels our romance. He is the living essence that takes presence in us. Thank God for making a ''stoner'' to be a ''stunner'', a dumb to be dandy( not about appearance, LOL). The captured moment that characterizes my life and the new chapter that will be part of my charter.

Oh, by the way, I don't normally do well at writing poetries and song, God uses her to awake my desire and delight in beauty of everything.

So, friends,readers, travelers, strangers alike, I write this in a simplest (maybe not) and sincerest (definitely) I can as my heart poured on. No worries, it's not an emo post but a exhilarating one.

What a wonderful world!!

''Carrying with all of our hopes and dream''

In a nutshell, nearly all of us have our own hopes, aspirations and dreams. (duh!) Well, maybe some of us have it and pursue them while some just sit at the corner and only dream about them. We also aspire to be the person that we want to be, thinking that our life will be perfect and will be our zenith and peak of our recorded life history. Perhaps, that would be the only solution endless search of complete and total victory, a sort of utopia-like or paradise-like, realizing that we have achieved the purpose of our life and can finally declare that we have led a successful life. Can we achieve them? Are we able to see our accomplished lifelong dreams right in front of our own very eyes? We want to be successful. Yes. The question lies in not how we able to achieve them, but rather, what do they mean to you? The sky have its limits...

Discover your heart

Staring the ceiling with the empty heart
Life is not what you've known to be
Carrying it with bruises and scars of life
It's tempting to die and leave it all, ''all''

One only knows death, for death seemingly solves all
Yet the problems still remained, remnants of unresolved heart
Shattered heart, scattered soul, struggling to stand up
Yet there are choices, a call for your own ''cause''

Stand up at your feet and be the champion of your heart
Lift up the curtains of your heart
Look over the windows of your soul
Move out from your comfort home

Journey to the unknown, venture to the untouched
Dangerous as it may seemed, adventures celebrate it all
Knowing who you are as you step outside
Life that is unseen by all, lives in you

Experience the comfort of your challenges,
Changing the core of your soul
Experience the process of perilous life,
Your destination maybe a distance, but your destiny is discovered

He will never give you up
















He means you.
Yes, you.




















Even Obama can't convince you of this.




















You can be sure of that.

















The whole world tells you that.

He's definitely won't let you down.

He wants you to know that he mean it... deeply...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yu_moia-oVI

He wants you to hear his song.

Yes, I'm joking.

Last but not least.














A post dedicated to Ricky, my friend.