More than a book,more than a movie,it's all about my life...

5....4....3....2....1....The screen then flashed into the year of 2006 which there are lots of events that happened in our life...The narrator then begin his story....
''2006 gonna over soon...at least in this few hours....2006,six,to some of you guys....might be a sICK experience not only just the word six...six=sick...2006 is the year of transistion for me and some of the people out there...there had been a lot of things happening;both expected or unexpected....normal or abnormal things...rewards or punishment...well..well..for a young man like me...it had been a mixed blessing....
(Recalling the moments I have this year)yeah..i just knew that i am quite a nostalgic kind of person....hehe

National Service

To others,National Service seems not a good thing..at least that's not what I think at the same time...Going there,mixing with different people,having fun together...Is a good thing...well...i guess...it's a matter whether a person decide that he or she want to grow up...But of cos....not everything is totally good or bad..lah..there are good and bad things...rite...
While I am a person who had a low self-esteem...I do have a cold,merciless,vengeful heart...I'm the one who will not forget old grudges,the spirit of revenge lives within me..I am the kind of the person that love to pretend/act and I'm very sarcastic kind of person..This image might have been overportrayed..that's the truth about me back then..yes...I know some of you will not believe this..but this is the truth..
Something changed me...Throughout the National Service camp...when I was in a church service..I felt that God still loves me eventhough I always challenged Him in many ways...4 or 5 years ago..while I accepted Christ..but I was not a pretty ''true'' and ''serious'' Christian back then...I do not viewed Him as important or a God..For me..it's just a religion to be filled in my IC...I always challenge Him and thought that I am more important than Him..I always think that the world revolves around me..
haha...Then in the camp,He ''fried'' me up with troubles,''boiled'' me up to the max and told me that everything is possible if I still believed in Him...since then..my faith is Renewed..no longer a person who is a mixed Christian-Buddhist..but a true person who is a Christian...Through the camp..I actually learnt a lot of things and He made me grow stronger and freed me from a lot of things...at least I beginning to feel His undying love..and even though I disconnected from Him..He still wants me back..I rejected and disregarded Him but He still loves me..
Therefore in this camp..I renewed my relationship with Him...
Different people got their own different expectations in NS camp...Welcome to the real,innocent,cute,funny world...
In NS camp..you have many kinds of people..believe it or not..some are weird,some are like/macam(I have no comment)...but despite this..we all can get together and enjoy...For me then...I never know I will become a re-born Christian in the camp..I never expected it to be happen....I am in awe of Him..I do not expect my self to get re-born or revived for Him..I simply do not desire Him back then...I thanked Him for being with me throughout the camp and helping me to know the people in the camp...

Back from NS

After a few months...I had left the NS camp which holds good and bad experience that I have in my life..well...that's called growing process ;)
Got my SPM result..I am not really disappointed just felt O.K. with it since I know that my ability,I cannot hope for higher achievements...In my hometown..I have been called as ''lazy'' because I haven't get into college or form 6...Actually I am in the process of determining my interest and career path in my life..I got a lot of criticisms simply I was the ''late'' person to go to another stage of education...lol...nvm...hehe..There were few brothers and sisters that supported and encouraged me along the way..Thanks..guys....also to you..My Lord.. ;)
My fire as a Christian seems to have die or extinguish because I do not always seek Him and am spiritually dry...Because I don't have transport to go to church and no one to follow me up..I'm lost and depressed...failed to adjust with the realities of my life...Until a nice brother came and invited me to a Youth Camp which fills me again with passion for Him and I had a greater understanding in Him..there's more than just to going to church and study His Word..It was so spiritually alive that I had been filled with His love,passion,patience,joy,hope and strength once more...I always prayed to Him that I can go to church every week when I am in the college..hehe..I always pray to Him daily since I was in NS...I love to talk to Him and He is my source of comfort...and relief too...

College?

Which college am I going?Haha...This is one of the most fascinating things in my life...Initially...i should be going to Taylors geh...but...but...I THOUGHT the dateline is over...which leaves the choice between KDU or HELP...As the course that I wanted to study is law..(I dunno why i had a interest in this course though)..HELP seems less attractive to me so I chose KDU which was smaller and looks more humble which does not appeal me in any way...sounds contradicitng eh?hehe..Nevertheless...I still choose KDU...(dONT ASK me why...)
The few weeks before going to KDU...i FOUND OUT THat the Taylors' dateline is not over YET...ah..oh..well..nevermind....;)

College days,months but less than a year?

Ops..sry the title above looks funny..hehe...nvm..KDU is a interesting place...The time when I was a outstation student..I prayed that I will found a new life,happiness,love,joy...and of cos..going to church...yeh..hurray..sorry-Lah..i might be stupid or kampung like I haven't been to a church..i GOT my own reason..hehe...FUN and HAPPENING might be as I found in my college...I felt there are something bad behind all these funs...I might have blinded by all those HAPPENING things..but I have learnt to accept things...While my struggles have been stronger..My faith in Him too became stronger to the point of overcoming my own weaknesses... ;)
I was taking a pre-Law A level course which is less than a year..that should clear your doubts about my sub title above...hehe

CF

Before arriving here..I do not plan to go to join CF because I want to join student council..lol..to (buang masa)..Something happen in the second week..a sister asked me whether to join CF..so i accept only see what's so special about CF... ;)
About CF again..I thought it will be boring and wasting time but once I joined in,I became a regular(dunno why...haha...maybe i really have nothing better to do)In this CF I really learnt a lot of things that changed me and drawn me closer to Him...
In CF..I just found out that it is more than just a fellowship..more than that...Here..I met a lot of people...All with different personalities(diverse) but all shared the Same(common) love,respect for others...From them..I certainly had learnt a lot of things in many areas...I meant..ermm...really a lot..uncountable..unmeasurable..
So in college..because of my ''active'' involvement in the CF,I undoubtedly had been associated with CF in my college and termed as ''religious'' kind of person..hehe..to all of my college friends and new friends..but..hey..before that..I wasn't like that..I just dunno why I like CF...well...I am just a person who loves God dearly..because His Amazing Grace and Love had touched and melted my heart..oh..I don't know how..I am no longer the ''dark'' kind of person...hmmm....=>
Through my CF also...I finally had settled down in a church(Yea..hurray)..hehe...;)

Cell Group

Haha..cell groups...since I did not always go to church..I don't know there is such thing as cells in church..In biology..I learnt about body cells..,physics...battery cells...lol... cells in jail...how about the church's cell? No one know but He knows that.....................
In my visit to other church,I had been approached by a guy(looked like a salesman)..a fellow brother whom I don't know and invited me to the cell...i asked for his number and i will contact him if i interested in joining...hehe...And but then,due to something like ''boring'' reason..I ended up joining the cell..In my cell..I also met a lot of people...learnt a lot of things and enjoy my time there with my ''cellmates''..lol...gee...nice to know u guys...U guys SURE teach me a lot of things..;)

YQ

Although I had been to a lot of church camps before...(at least this year where I had the first experience of going to church camps)..and all of them had enabled me to grow,learning new things,discovering new possibililities..and also..there was this camp,the last of all camps that I joined in this year,the YQ camp..It was in this camp..I really learnt a lot of things...Through this camp..I began to have a greater feeling of mercy and compassion..not just any feeling..but it is natural ... because it comes and flows naturally...I felt no burden in it...D YQ camp certainly had shaken my heart to its foundation/core and showed to me that there is more than just that...and life is not really just very complicated....it is in its simplicity that we taken lightly..lol...in other words..we take things for granted-Lah... ;)Again...nice to know other people in the camp and my tribe too..

31st Dec 2006

It was in this morning of the last day of the year,when I woke and saw an SMS that Aunt Luan had passed away(she's a member of my church)...I was shocked and stunned at the same time..We always been praying for her and there have been miracles but this time (literally) there is none..While I always been encouraging others to accept death(in my belief,physical death)...That was before..Now..I also find it hard to accept this myself..But the Lord told and assured me that ''All is well'' and I believed in His perfect timing...For everthing that happens,there must be a reason in it..We might not know the reason itself..But we see His wisdom around the things that happen...Greater things come to those who wait with patience...Out of sudden,I felt called to reply the sms and to encourage and give His assurance that everything in His Hands and He has the final say in His decision...There is nothing to be worried about...To all of us humans...truth itself is hard and we find it difficult to believe and accept it...Truth or tragedy...The thing is the truth is the tragedy itself..I found myself hard to accept the truth that He still wants me despite I shut Him off in whole my life..tragedy is that the truth sometimes haunt or discourage me..But then..without discouragement,there is no encouragement..it's all in a cycle...;)
In the last 30 minutes in the last day of the year 2006,I walked outside to see fireworks but I heard a farewell song which was Auld something sumthing...as the tune mixed with the lyrics went inside my ears..I felt touched as I am bidding farewell to all my past experiences that I have this year...2006 had passed...I watched as the sky was lit with the dazzling displays of fireworks which looked like ''Perancah Maggie,tomato and chilli sauce being mixed and fried together''...lol...sry..I know i am lame...
Oh..2007 had arrived...For all of us out there..we began to imagine new things,new experiences and of course new life..For me...2007 is not just 7-11 where you can get everything instantly..it will be more than that..more than all your dreams,hopes,goals,resolutions,aspirations or tests,exams,challenges,struggles,difficulties..or more than anything that one only could imagine of......From 2006 itself..I saw myself learnt a lot of things and being well nurtured by Him,I had been freed from my depression,my loneliness,rejection and being drawn towards Him..In my journey to get things right before Him..I faced tough challenges and struggles against myself,my friends,my family and yet I prevailed with His help and aid..Welcome to 2007...I believed there will be a lot of challenges and struggles...as I had been elevated to high position in this world..and I need His help to make things right..I felt the calling.. ''
(THis documentary Had over...The narrator thanked all of the people who are patient enough and willing to bear with this long movie or documentary...to listen his stories of his experiences...All of this stories are real and I,the narrator bore witness to all these events in my life...My beliefs and my point of view in the stories are different than other people and while the stories can be summarized as ''how a young man find his new life in this world'',these stories themselves are very meaningful to the narrator himself..and everyone is entitled to his or her opionions..)
As the credits rolling...the narrator give thanks to Him who had been leading him...faithful brothers and sister who encouraged him,caring family members and relatives...cute,funny and good friends who enjoyed the friendship with him.....
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bUT..hey....heee...waittt....
Happy New Year 2007 to all of the people out there!!!