A Confession of a Broken and Shattered Heart

A love story

One day, a friend asked me...
' Do you want to follow me to a place?'
Having nothing to do, I went with my friend.....
Little did I know, I will found something I've been seeking for....

I found you there....
The first time I saw your beauty..
I had been drawn nearer and nearer to you.....
The one that I will fall in love with......

You're so beautiful.....
In my heart, I thought I had found my way....
Your presence made me felt welcomed...
I felt happy to confess my love to you...

And I did......
Enjoyed doing things together with you...
Having fun and laughter with you...
You made me committed to you.....

However, there were others coming out...
Others that seemed better than you....
The cry from my past....
The pains from my experiences...
Told me to break away from you....
That you no longer satisfy me.....
I want to break up with you.....

I took drugs to satisfy myself......
And I enjoy them very much.......
That soon, I grew addicted to them....
As time passed, the dose went bigger....

Meanwhile, I took pleasure of pursuing other relationships...
Going from one to another.......
All of them do not satisfy fully of my heart....
Nor they too have the thing that I sought.....
I grew disappointed and depressed...
I hate the world and everything in it...
I am tired of looking around and searching...
My mind became more and more chaotic....
My heart became void of emotion and cold....

People looked down on me......
Outwardly, they looked kind...
But, inwardly they are actually cruel and merciless...
There is no justice in this world...No one will give me hope...
People with wealth and power bullied me and chased me away...
Not enough with that, they even cursed me....
I have no one to come to.... I felt alone....

The police arrested me and brought me to a camp....
I suffered more humiliation and my heart raging with heart...
Threatening to seek revenge for those who are responsible....
But I knew it was pointless and I could not do anything....
In my heart I cried for someone to care for me....

But then, you came and visited me in a unexpected way....
Your love moved me to tears and give me a new life...
As if I am born again, I will never be the same again...
Never see the world in the same old perspective.....
I never know....that....you have the thing that I've been seeking...
All those pains and hurts are gone when I looked to you....

I felt guilty and shameful but you said....
'That doesn't matter because I still love you and want you back to my arms....
I broke down, not knowing what to do....
But you assured me and just smiled to me....
Your smile gives me the hope,comfort and love....
All my worries,anxieties and fear are casted away....
My eyes are filled with the hope you give...
My soul is brimming with the life you create in me....

You kiss me on my cheek and hug me....
Giving the warmth that I've always wanted...
I no longer feel shaken by cold....
You gave me acceptance....

My heart shattered when I thought how I treat you last time....
How I abandon your love for another....
And make your love look cheap...
Yet your faith in me still continue....
The price you took for me is too high and unbearable....
But you said that I am worth it...

I feel and taste your sweet love...
I want to kiss you more and will never let you again...
I want to celebrate the freedom I have gain...
I want to share everything I have with you....
I will never forget your love which held my hand...

Though the reality showed that I am infected with a lot of diseases...
Because of what I did in the past and now I carried the burden....
But whenever your love touches my heart, I shall not fear and not give up..
Your love never fades and never fail to cheer me up...
Thank you for undying and unstoppable love,my lover.....
>Jesus....For the joy and blessing you have bring to my life.....<